He intersperses his account with brief moments of philosophy as when parsing the meaning of “I” and “me”, quotes the opening line from The Satanic Verses (To be born again… first you have to die), muses on the weaponisation of religion, talks of EE Cummings, Robert M Pirsig, Socrates, Bertrand Russell, PG Wodehouse, the poet Farididdin Attar, John Locke and many others.
India continues to be a lost love. “India, the country of my birth and my deepest inspiration, on that day found no words,” he writes. “Elsewhere, the hostility emanating from India and Pakistan… is a wound that remains unhealed to this day.” And, among the dreams he dreams, “I dreamed of returning to my beloved Bombay…” There is neither forgiveness nor compassion for the A in Rushdie, and that is most understandable. His speculation about the young man’s level of intelligence as well his surmise that the A lived an unexamined life is thought-provoking. We would not be who we are today without the calamities of our yesterdays, the writer avers, and is firm that he would answer violence with art. If the knife is a metaphor of death, he counters it with many a metaphor of love. As for the A, “after his 27 seconds of fame were up, he was nobody again”.
Once we are done with flinching at everything the writer has gone through, we need to ask if the knife attack has changed him much. The jury would still be out on that since Rushdie’s high self-regard, his need to prove that most of his past “sins” seem to have been forgiven by people, his digs at his former wives (not all, just one or two!), his ego, his snark, all seem to be undented.
This is Rushdie’s second memoir after Joseph Anton. It is hard to read because of the savagery of the attack on him. As a reader, as one who believes in free speech and the right to imagination, one can only hope Rushdie, 76 years old now, is able to live out the rest of his days in peace and love, able to write books that tell wonderful stories, no longer a “strange fish famous more for the mishaps of his life than for his books”.
Knife: Meditations After an Attempted Murder
By: Salman Rushdie
Publisher: Penguin Books
Pages: 209
Price: Rs 699
